Wednesday, November 23, 2011

To my only reader

Life gets tough sometimes when it throw you a curve ball in a game you didn't know you were playing. Most of the time you'll get painfully smashed in the face all bloody and what not. Too surprised to do anything back so you just lay there on the ground screaming, clutching your ruin face and the other team runs circles around you taunting you yelling cruel things like "Nice catch shithead!" or something like "Why don't you try and open your eyes once in a while squinty and maybe your face wouldn't look so ugly sir poopalot!" "Aw you angry loser? You going to tell your dad on us? Oh wait that's right you don't have a dad!" "Ha ha ha your so ugly your dad doesn't love you!-SHUT UP! SHUT YOUR MOUTH! YOUR ALL JUST STUPID! AND IM GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS IF YOU ALL DON'T SHUT UP!!!....................

Sorry, what was I talking about?

Ah yes, so sometimes life gets hard. And maybe its too hard to tough it out like you usually do. Maybe if your like me, you don't like to trouble those closest to you with your real problems. But if you didn't do your homework or you locked your self out the house for the third time that stuff alright to talk about, it doesn't hurt when they ignore those kinds of problems.....In my three years of college starting my new life here I've face some of the toughest choices I ever had to make. From broken hearts, to joining the military you have been there helping me through it all.

Do you remember that one time when I called you on the phone crying about trying to kill that trapped rat? I never forgot what you said to me. How even though I was calling my self weak and cowardly for not being able to kill this little trapped rat and I cried and sobbed that its squeaks were so terrible and I couldn't understand why it hurt so much to hear them.  But you understood my sorrow and I swear there was a moment where I felt your smile from across the line. You told me how wonderful I am because I cared so much for something so little. You told me that I wasn't weak at all, it was just that my heart was too big and I that I was stronger then most people because I had to carry such a big heart where ever I go. You told me I was a good person even though I never believed I was a good person at that moment I believed you. And I felt happy.

I realize now that you should of been the first person I called not the second. I never made that mistake again.

You are compassionate, caring, emphatic, emotional, insane, lovely, weird, incredibly random, spontaneous, diligent, small, strong, delicate, and dangerously brutal. You cry at the drop of a hat and punch just as fast. You sing like some divine being but always end up lapsing in to some strange horrible creature noise that would frighten small children and animals. You make horrible days break down in to fits of laughter and songs, and make average days in to the most dramatic of moments. And most of all, you care about everyone and we all can't help but care about you.

So thank you. You're the greatest best friend that anyone could ever have.

Thank you.

P.S. So turns out a lot of people like the Mohawk, haha guess I should of kept it right? Thank you for the hair cut anyways. I think I look pretty fly bald.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Hey guess who is wonderful?

You are.

I love you guys.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Heroics and Facebook

I saved a guy from death by moving his car off the freeway a couple of days ago. And I felt heroic! I thought to my self good deed done! But better yet that guy just facebooked me. Telling how grateful he was and how i saved him by helping him out and how awesome that a compete stranger would do that. I never got a thank you message from a stranger before. It made me smile. Im glad I got help somebody.

Rough night, gorgeous day

Spent my day with my favorite person in the world! And I also did my first audition today ladies and gentlemen! Just you wait and see this is the first step in to the world of SHOW BIZ! MWAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Hahaha it was fun today, we ate, we talked......ok so we mostly just practiced our acting scene for class , but that doesn't me were not having fun! It was a good day and super excited to try for more auditions! Wish me luck!ou

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Good Times with Peanut Butter and Chicken


Today i'm up before the sunrises and it is a sight i'm swiftly becoming accustom too. I'm wearing my warm and snugly monk seal Kigurumi and blasting my Dr.Horrible sound track, its a pretty good morning so far. Though my PJ and Jelly chicken rice is a tremendous failure.....I like the purple though, its pretty. Mmmmmm I take it back, the jelly is DELICIOUS with the chicken rice, not so much the peanut butter...Eww there's a hair in my rice..cool its blonde! Weird but cool!

No pictures today, it will just gross you out. But you all be sure to try it! Its fun to try new things! Hahaha I miss you blog, I forgot how much fun it is to post your ideas for the public to blatantly ignore. Be pretty busy these couple of weeks and sorta lost my drive to post. BUT! Rest assured my friend! While you are waiting wide eyed and on the edge of your seat for my next brilliant post I will be....considering what to eat to tell you the truth. Hmmmm my words wasn't as inspiring as I was aiming for.

Hey! I'm going to add fish to my PJ and Jelly and Chicken rice bowl! Omg i'm so excited!! I"m going to put on my Nightmare Before Christmas Revisited CD to CELEBRATE!!!

Ohhhhhh! And I got a Manager position for Anime Expo everyone! Congratulate me!!!....I'm totally not going to get a single comment on this am I?

Monday, September 19, 2011

you don't have to laugh like that. i left it for you on the table. that hurt my face more than i wanted it to. really you're typing that

you're supposed to write in the box right here. squish flop pow hehehe. i think you made the title bigger than the content. what?! sigh. mmmew don't look at me are you looking fo rinspiration that's what's going on? meehdfa i had a shark attack dream. i almost died. the end. mmmphh you o nly wrote two sentences right there. i like how i met your mother the best cuz she had the best jcookies. they had soy sauce in them. crack crack My back! but not your mother's back no sirree.

this is your conscience speaking.

stay away from the oreos. they are not yours. and they shall never be. as soon as you accept that the sooner the tooth fairy will come by with 18 years of money owed me. milk makes me gassy. sweet sassy molassey. the pains i endure as a racist hispanic cow tipping 7 year old girl.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

(ReVisited!)We'll Call It This Land!

{Just an old draft that I forgot to finish. I have alot of these, so jus tto let you know I might randomly post these  posts. Haha i'll add the title (revisited) if there really old. This on is like a year old...}


I had an awesome dream today! I dreamed that I was a Captain of a spaceship (well it looked more like a space hovercar since it didn't really fly but everyone else had hover car ships too. So it must be ok.) Anyways so it was me and my partner/co captain on the ship car hover whatever. And shes like those cliche vice captains who was stoic and kickass but looked small and delicate. Must of come from a book I read.

SO! Me and my one (wo)man crew were cruising along this dark grey world in our Serenity/Millennium Falcon looking ship and we were just badass looking in our awesome ride when all of a sudden a big convoy full of not so friendly mercenaries/evil smugglers/slavers/Nazis/The Bad Guys roll up on our ride. Now In my dream head I was think "Aw snap, looks like i'm gonna have to woop some butts


Co captain stotic pretty fierce fighter like u see those robot anomes or a fairy see our world for the first time
Ship awesome. Big enough for at least 7 people. Think firefly and millennium falcon mixed. Lol I didn't see the front
A convoy of mercenaries remments of a losing army, scavenger, thieves what ever bad guys.
They needed a guide.  And we had maps and stuff. My partner knew the route and I was the muscle. They put a couple of people on our ship. I didn't like it......

{And it ended there.}

Yeah I get it! I know what day it is!


Lady Gaga taught me its ok to be different,
Ke$ha taught me to be myself and not care what anyone else thinks,
Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person i love,
Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through,
Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right,
Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me,
Music taught me how to live
But most importantly, 
Rebecca Black taught me the days of the week
                -CupcakeLyrics99 

Haha thats just a comment I read on youtube today. I thought it was neat so I shared it with you guys. I don't know why everyone is hating on Rebecca Black. Sure she used auto tune but lost of famous artist do that these days and yeah ok the lyrics to the song were....meaningless but, i'm sure she didn't write the song. 

Plus its catchy, and that's why I like it. You can bet your buttered bacon that when Friday comes along your going to hear me singing "ITS FRIDAY FRIDAY! ect.."

Monday, August 22, 2011

The World I Wish I Could Have

So today I just broke up with my girlfriend (who we shall call Curly Girl) of several months and friend for nearly 2 years. We met during our freshmen year of college in a Tai Chi class of all things. I thought she was pretty and she thought I was weird, a classic case of boy meets gorgeous. I made her a paper fox to show my love and Curly didn't care much for it said "Oh that's neat" and promptly left it in the room when class was over.

I was utterly crushed.

But time flew by and we became best friends me and Curly! We hanged out nearly everyday and went on many wondrous adventures to many places that her beat up jeep could take us (i didn't have a car back then). We went to Japan! And tasted the fantastic food and I being so japanese savvy told her many of the strange things that they had, like chop sticks or sushi. And we went to Russia! Which had yummy sandwiches and nudity in their news papers, we learned that "Spicy Bah!" meant "thank you" and we immeditaly wanted to go exploring in the Siberia mountains. We went to some many places full of so many memories and it was fun! It was magical! And absolutely I wished those times would never end.

But soon my pretty smiley curly girl started to fall for me, I bet she fell for my dashing wit and outrageous good looks. And well who could blame her? I am pretty awesome.

But by that time I had started to like other girls and have feelings for other people. So I pretended to never noticed hoping we can be best friends for ever. Yeah you can say it, i'm a dick.

But Curly wouldn't have any of that, she was always straight forward about some things...
One day as I was laying in the passenger seat of her wondrous white jeep mobile she asked me straight up "So are we just friends?" and I thought "Huh?" I kinda wasn't expecting that since I was happily dozing off in her car (girl are tricky like that so you all better watch out.) So in my bleary eye state I only manage to squeek out a "Yes?" and she responed with "Oh, ok." I felt foolish thinking that was so hard to do.

After that not much changed, we were still friends, we still hanged out.....but something did changed though...its just hard to explain.

The girl I liked at the time was cute and really different from everybody that I've met before. She was weird, random, and didn't have the slightest romantic feeling for me. Me being a romantic vowed to her that "One day! I'll make you fall for me!" and saying after that we will date and stuff and I won't give up on you til then...

Well that didn't work out, after less then 2 years of trying she still didn't care for me much. Which was sad but i'm alright. Shes currently my best friend right now. It would be great if she was here, and not in New York having fun.

I could use my bf right now.

Anywho after I finally gave up on whats her face (I'm only kidding) I was feeling pretty much blah. But happily my Curly haired friend was there for me and cheered me up. I vaguely recall saying how terribly I must be for someone not to like me and she reassured me I was great. I asked her why and she told me why...... It turns out even after all this time she still loved me. After two years of us just being friends, of me talking about the girl I liked and the next scheme of how I can get her to fall for me.....she still loved me.

I fell for her right then and there.

We started going out! It was a whirlwind of dating and fun and lots of holding and cuddles and other amazing things that I forgot how great they were. We had all sorts of new and fantastic adventures! By this time I had my own car and it was me taking her everywhere! It was so amazing, It was so much fun, it was magical and once again I wished that those times would never end.

Then we started having problems. During this time I was trying to make amends with that silly girl I liked. Me and her started talking more and turns out after I stopped turning to woo her with my amazing charm and grace, we got along quite well and became fast friends.

My Curly girl didn't like this, she was worried since I liked her in the past I might end up falling for her again. I tried to reassure her that we were just friends and that I understood why she was worried. She understood and told me she was fine with it because she loved me. And I told me self that I didn't ever want to make her cry.....

Many things happened since then and I can honestly say that I loved that pretty curly haired girl too. But she had this bad habit of not telling what she was feeling, she would say shes feeling one thing but actually feeling something completely different. I remember one time I told her to be completely honest with me and that what ever you say i'll believe you......that was a horrible idea. It didn't solve anything and she just got more upset because I didn't noticed when something was bothering her even though I asked what was wrong and she said "Nothing" and I was like "Are you sure?" and all I got was a "Yes, so stop asking."

After some time we became more and more suspicious of each other me trying to figure out what shes feeling and how to make her happy and her what I feel for silly girl and what i'm not telling her. This went on til we went on vacation to my parents house in Hawaii were we had to spend several days of each other company with out breaks.....it was an eye opener living with the person you love..

I don't really know if this was the right choice. I felt we couldn't get...better with out something happening. I didn't know if this was the right choice I only know that I didn't feel the same way anymore. And that I wanted what was best for her. And she deserved someone who love her like she loves them.

We talked for hours about our feelings, on the last night we were together as boyfriend and girlfriend we told each other things we were too afraid to ask and to afraid to say. Finally after months of half truths, of the many arguments and painful tears we were finally honest with each other....finally at the end...

She cried and i'm not ashamed to say a couple of tears fell from me too. As I held her in the open door of her magical wondrous white jeep she cried and weep in my arms even though she was an hour past her curfew she stood there and cried.

I didn't know what to do, I didn't want her to cry, I didn't want to hurt her....I didn't want to hurt her.... I held on to her as tight as I could hoping one day she will realized that I just wasn't the one for her. And that maybe, just maybe, one day in the future we could drive around in her beat up white jeep and find some amazing adventures like we use to, back in the time when I wish the world would never change.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Great Cupcakes of Favela!

My gosh that was the most frustrating experience of my wonderfully bleak and savage life. Well to anybody who has noticed, (and I'm thinking not many) I haven't posted anything for awhile, or at least it feels like awhile at least.

Anywho, the reason for my complete lack of content is one of three things.

  1. Is the fact that my phone is being quite hateful and shutting it self off just to annoy me or freezing during the most inappropriate leading to awkward conversations about the web content i'm surfing for. Stupid smart phone.
  2. Is that I got a brand spanking new computer! Its pretty! Its shiny! Not to mention the gigantic size it has. I think the screen size is actually bigger then my TV (which is awesome! Who watches TV now anyway?) Of course the problem is the fact that while its awesome and pretty it also doesn't have a clue to what its doing. Like a high school virgin its trying all kinds of things to please me with its "Look at me flashy features" to its "Repeated updates on its virus freeness" I like you new computer, I'm actually using you right now, but you have to understand that my old computer knew all my email passwords and could just one click in to website logins. Its quite frustrating to try and remember like 5 passwords to 10 sites and can't even use password recovery! Because its sending it to my other email account that you don't know the password too! Sigh its ok new computer, we'll get through this.
  3. And my last reason why I've haven't been update frequently is the fact that I am lazy.
Yep! Lazyness, procrastination, I just don't feel like finishing any of the drafts I have. I have like 5 things I wanted to talk about but, everytime I get on the computer I go straight to Youtube or facebook or some other soul sucking website that is slowly destroying my social life.

But my dear readers!  Don't fret! I'll update soon, you'll see.

You can count on me.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

WiFi Guilt

I always feel terrible everytime I go to a starbucks or some other hotspot just to use the internet.

I feel like its the worst kind of stealing, im committing internet stealing! The guilt burns!

So everytime I come here I usually end up buying a small coffee and just pretend to drink it occasionally. Im not much of a fan for coffee. Unless there's TONS of sugar! Even then it makes my stomache grumbly.

Ah darn. They're looking at me. I bet they're on to my plan of fake drinking internet stealing!

Stupid


Sunday, July 24, 2011

No place like home

I use to live here.

Then I moved to California, for the weather.

Plus cali has disneyland so win.



I love lihing mui!

I wish I had more. But a dollar 71 is alot for a cheap college guy.


Saturday, July 16, 2011

Call me Bubba Baby

So for the past couple of days I've been eating shrimp. Shrimp noodles, Shrimp burrito, Shrimp rice, Shrimp shrimp shirmp shirpm hsirpmp shirpmpp sripmp!!!!

I'm kind of sick of it a bit now.

Which is why I'm excited for the beef noodles shes making now! It smells great!! I love it when my mom cooks she just makes everything better and delicious. It must be a Mom power.

Oh jeezs she just dropped something.

(Inserts "Why Moms are crazy story")

I can't believe how crazy my mom is. Anyways now were sitting about eating good food. And i'm think about all the past foods I ate. So much shrimp.... haha heres some pictures!

Shrimp Shrimp And SHRIMP HEADS!

El Camarones, Its Authentic Mexican I hear
Umm..... Shrimp in Ramen?....With extra raw eggs. Yum!

Haha now i'm just getting bored. But Macaroni Cheese and Shrimp?
All it needed was Rooster Sauce and BAM! Elegance..

Are all parents crazy?

Ok so just now when my mom was cooking some tasty thai food she dropped a bottle of grey goose that was chillin in the freezer. So it falls and smashes to the floor in a million pieces and there's alcohol and razor sharp glass sprawled all over the floor.

Now instead of cleaning it up like like a normal person should she actually continues to cook lunch! Why!? Why wouldn't you just take I don't know at least 5 minutes to pick up the big pieces and brush the smaller ones in a pile?

She said "The food would burn," I said "Turn off the heat," she said "It won't cook right." I said "Its fine! Your Bleeding!" And she was said with mom authority "No i'm not." And that was the end of that.

I went to go get some flip fops so at least she would keep stepping on it and throw them in to the kitchen floor. She ignored them and keep cooking. I asked her to put on the flip flops and she said "No, they've been out side and will dirty up my floor."

Oh my god! What is wrong with my Mom!? I said "You would rather step on glass then dirty your kitchen floor? The one that I can easily clean!?"

My mom said "Yes bee" while she plucked glasses shards from her foot like it happens everyday.

Now she wants me to kill a fly, shes really upset about the fly. "trying to land on my food?...it does smell good...I did not kill the fly. it did not die...." haha my mom's mumblings. She calls the fly swatter the "Fly Killer"

Haha I love my mom.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Every good day should start the Kamehameha way

Morning hair.

I hate it.

Every morning my nice usually silky looking Asian hair stands straight up! Like I some how build electricity in my sleep and then WHAM! It gets shock straight in to my hair! And its not like even cool looking wild hair or all over the place Einstein hair. Its like looking at some anime character who if not for the hair would look exactly the same as every other character in that anime.

So pretty much it looks awful.

It defies gravity.

That's kinda cool actually.

Maybe I should audition for the next Dragon ball movie. Gosh with this hair i'm a shoe in for the role.

Good Morning world. I'm ready to kick your @ss!
You know what? Me and this hair are going places, just you wait i'll be that one guy on tv with that hair....and....you know get money from it.....yeah...

A guy can dream right?

Monday, July 11, 2011

Yellow eye ramen

I regret putting my beef chunks in so soon since all the pink got washed out. Sigh with I drenched it in sriracha sauce so im excited. My leafy beef noodles is done!

I think honey mustard would good great with this actually.

Yuck! Ok deli mustard is a horrible substitute for honey mustard.

Gosh now I really want some honey mustard with this.

Towels in History!

I did not know that towels were only 160 years old. Im trying to imagine what people before that used? Did they sun dry? Perhaps people back then moved around much more so the air kicked the water off them. Maybe they just didn't care how wet they got and just had days were they stayed soaked to the bone.

I mean if u think about it the idea of a towel isn't a complicated thing. Im mean really, was wiping the wetness of too much for ancient people?

"O dear no! Its horrible George! Im terrible drenched!"

"Good god Bob! Your right! Your completely wet! Even your teeth are wet! How shameful!"

"I know George the shame is overwhelming. What can i do!?"

"I think killing your self is your only option."

"...................."

"Yes death is the only to cure your terrible, terrible shame. Here's a knife, get to it."

"Umm are you sure?"

"Yes Bob im quite sure. Do you need help? Ill be more then happy to assist you with your suicide."

"Well how about I just take this cloth I have here and wipe it off-"

"Don't be ridiculous Bob! What can a measly cloth do against such shame!
Death clearly is the only answer! Here, see the pointy end? Take it and start stabbing."

"Bu-Bu-But I don't want to! Can I just jump in place and shake it off? Or lay a bit in the sun and wait the shame away?"

"Nope."

"Darn."

...........I totally forgot what I was talking about. Meh whatever.

Tastebuds? Ha!

Haha im too lazy to actually find shoyu


Hey! You come here often sweet thighs?

So people out there.....somewhere...reading my blog.......I missed you.

Ha! Well I just got a smart phone so I decided to Resurrect my short lived blog. It was pretty un avid wasn't it? At any rate. I'm going to be posting....."stuff" up here for everyone to see and be using my cool new shiny black smart phone to do it.

So look forward to that.

Yep.

O and if I stop a suddenly like again....well just blame your self for it that alright.